桌垫下的老照片，无数回忆连结。。。

Hoho. feeling slightly emo now, come to rant at my personal rant-page again.

Went to gather angpow by house-hopping today. Basically we managed to cover the whole of Taiping by going  to everyone's house beramai-ramai and sitting there for a while to chat, gamble, kepoh ppl's house decorations, u know the drill! Then dinner at TS (as expected). haiz, the day started off so excitingly but ended too soon for me. It seems like a few hours is really not enough when you've missed some people for so long. HHS, glad you came, and glad I came too. I'd never miss chances like these to recall the good old days...again I'm drawn to the dark habit of wondering "IF". Would it have made a difference at all? Honestly, it's been a miracle for me, to lose something we all eventually would lose, but detouring off to gain extra experience in the meantime. Taiping will forever be my hometown I guess. BM may be the place where I learned the ways of the city and honed my talents, and also where I live now, but never the place I grew up in.

Actually there's really nothing to complain about. It's true that people come together and eventually part ways at some point, I should really be grateful that we are all happy with our own lives and living well, no matter where we are. So there, a few pics here to remember this day.

HHS, apalu buat scratching ur back there?! XD

yes, angpow time!

Chor dai di!

Aawwwww dear panda...

Yes,dunno why I was so serious faced taking pic with our dai-ka-jie, Piggy!

LOL

Okay I admit. I am a big time underground narcissist!!!!  HAHAHAH.

I've guess I've been doing it for years now, singing/dancing when I'm alone and no ones watching. LOL

today it happened again. was packing to go home tmr, and then I put everything in my music folder on queue in playlist. Then came some Avril Lavigne songs, and then I felt IT. The next thing I knew I was air-guitaring and singing/yelling to her songs and pretending I was a rockstar on stage LMFAO.

Then holy shit I was in clubbing mode when Tonight by enrique iglesias came on, started dancing in a style *I imagined* was sexy XDDDDD Suddenly got inspiration for camp to show the "other side" of Lidi during performance. reminds me of the cool DMs during orientation freshie night.

hmm. so it's true, hailing from a family of musical people, I have inherited music in my blood...but somehow it's like my dirty little secret, since I know I'm not that good a performer/musician, it became a very personal hobby to syok sendiri whenever I'm in total privacy.

aaaaahhhhh another catchy song, time to dance/play guitar again. shit I'm supposed to pack and then study ><" The downside of being a Gemini, your head is in overdrive mode all the time like you're on drugs! I guess I'm acting out coz of this frikin headache due to thinking too much and too little sleep, need some physical exercise = get high like no tomorrow!

我不愿意

今天终于我没有放闹钟。睡到十一点。今天终于我醒来时，没有太多烦恼。今天开眼睛时，终于没有很急着要我做的事情。可是这一切在wifi恢复时结束了。我要面对的assignment全部又来了，要面对的CLS全部也找上门来了。如果fb有一天shutdown, 人是不是可以不再烦？呵呵，没想到我会讲这句话。曾经，fb是快乐的东西，可是现在有时一冲动想要在卸任后删到完CLS的contacts. 反正这一切我都不需要。

说道这里，该讲了，要做我的朋友、亲信，需要的不只是一段时间就能混熟。很多人只不过是我的同事，不要这么骄傲以为你可以就这样要我讲出心声---真的很难。不要在我面前装熟然后平时dont give a damn about me. 假假的关心只会让我想反胃。是，也许是我不懂感恩。我原本就没有心理准备接受这一切。再逼我都没有用。中学时Panda和Piggy你们就懂了，朗朗不要做的事情，就算死都不会做。但是朗会奋不顾身的为了朋友和执着的事情去拼。在远方的你们，还记得我吗？我现在困在这个坑里找不到我可以为它死的那样东西，怎样好？朗朗弱了，而当年孤傲的狼，也慢慢回来了。在这黑暗的夜晚里，我跟心魔厮杀着。

最近可能少唱题，连修养都大不如前了。乱骂粗口，嘴巴乱讲话讨人厌。真的的不像之前的我。唉。

将骗就骗。

每次就是哄自己说过了这个星期就好，再辛苦一下就雨过天晴，可是每次就是没完没了！！！这世界就是不甘愿给我放松一下。虽然我的自我催眠已经到了一个程度厉害，我不会忘记自己的。

Merry Christmas!

Wow. Taking a break and detaching myself from my usual social networking made me realise how dependent we have become on facebook. It's like, everything related to your friends, your work, your groups, are all GONE the moment u step back from the gateway of connectivity. A bit scary, not being able to update myself. But the scarier thing is how weird I feel without facebook. Hmm. Technology has really taken over my life. And to top it all off, I just revved this whole connectivity thing to a whole new level by acquiring a Samsung smartphone. LOL. HOW IRONIC!!!!

Still learning to use my phone. It is however pretty limited without a data plan. Funny thing is I don't even have time to play with it or install a thousand apps on it now. Usually that's what I'd do when i get a new gadget. But again, time constraints are making me feel guilty for even blogging. But to heck with assignments, a girl's got to  blog when she's got to blog, OK??? (hmph, so much for priorities ><)

Most importantly, had a great weekend with mummy and aunt in KL. On saturday afternoon we went to Berjaya Times Square to do some light shopping and sight seeing. It was all christmast-y and festive and as crowded as the place can get. Oh yeah, nearly forget, I finally had the chance to go to Wisma Kebudayaan SGM to take a look at some fine art, namely purple-clay pottery（紫砂壶）, chinese calligraphy, and abstract art by Tan Tong！felt so small in the face of great works of art...although not as entertaining as musical performing arts that I am more used to, seeing pretty little things that took so much time and love to forge gives me a sense of calmness. As I scrutinize every angle, curve and color of the artworks, it hits me that something beautiful may not always catch your eye at first glance, and may vary very much according to personal taste.

some shots from the exhibition:

all kinds of shapes and patterns of teapots!

clay samples to make the pots. looks more like rocks to me.

hahahahaha....mum with her brown wig!!! makes me feel older than she is when she is so "in"!

the art of Tan Tong (陈东）

ink sketch

narrator explains that woman figure represents beautiful chinese concubine Yang Kwei Fei, and the "tired" yellow dragon underneath represents the Emperor of that time, Tang XuanZhong. The artist's muse is Yang Kwei Fei most of the time...can see throughout his paintings he writes “东东and妃妃”.

   

Ouchie my bruise from last week's dance is getting better but still turning different shades of purple each day.

请容许我一下子的SS

Syok sendiri!!!! 哈哈哈，这几天有人赞我跳舞好看，还被舞蹈班的人拉，说我有节奏感~woohoo~其实可能因为在一万年前的时候我有篇过团康舞吧。。。中学时也为了camp表演学过舞（记得其中几首是彩虹的微笑、出神入化、玩酷、high school musical等等）。muahahahah,我学来果然不是白费的！


虽然我的学业真的有点忽略，可是为了做活动我也学到不少东西，也认识很多有才的人。又很多机会给我SS。。。哈哈哈，算起来，应该还是值得的吧。尽情投入去做罢了啦~现在又要开始做assignment了，唉，现实果然是残酷的！


新春加油！

机会

They say that every dog has its day. Well, I'm not a dog, but I can certainly feel that my day is coming. And I have ambiguous feeling about it. Here we go again, huh? All this time I've been ranting about not being able to unleash my full potential, well now here it is. I got what I wanted. But is it too much for me to handle? What makes me so sure that I can pull it off without poking myself in the eye?

Chance, luck, opportunity, fate, destiny, human agency, all of it works in such intricate,amazing ways. And somehow I have been led on this wild wild crazy epic ride. Yes, indeed my life is epic. For I traverse the paths that none would try. Call me stupid, call me an idiot. But I am all of those things, and much more. Listlessness as I am, somehow I will try my best to make something out of nothing. I can only hope for the best now, as I have one steering wheel and no brakes at all.

Funny, how some will think that I would ever forsake friendship for anything. As far as I'm concerned, it's not happening. Who am I without friends? No great general can win a war on his own, and I am certainly not going to leave my best battle buddy behind. You chose me, and now, I will choose you too.

15th CLSC OSE, here I come!